Why is my life miserable? Why do I live a mediocre life?


It is fitting that I ask this fundamental question, for I will discover the true meaning of life in its answer. The simple answer is I don’t have wisdom.  In 2 Chronicles 1:7 God appeared to Solomon, and said to him, “Ask! What shall I give you?”  Notice that the first step in finding my life is to ask.

Matthew 7:7 “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.  Solomon responded saying 2 Chronicles 1:10  Now give me wisdom and knowledge, that I may go out and come in before this people; for who can judge this great people of Yours?  And God gave Solomon wisdom and understanding beyond measure, and breadth of mind like the sand on the seashore, so that Solomon’s wisdom surpassed the wisdom of all the people of the east and all the wisdom of Egypt.  If I have this wisdom, I can’t possibly live a mediocre life.  That has been proven by the life of Solomon.

Then, What is wisdom? Or who is Wisdom?

If we look into sacred scriptures, we shall discover the name of Wisdom is mystically ascribed to Jesus Christ.  And thus Solomon cries to the Father: Give me the Wisdom that sits by Your throne (Wisdom of Solomon 9:4).  And who sits next to God, at the right hand of the Father, exalted above all created things, if not the Lord Jesus Christ?  For He is indeed, the Power and the Wisdom of God (1 Corinthians 1:24).  Elsewhere Solomon says: I determined to take Wisdom to live with me, knowing that She would be a counselor for me (Wisdom of Solomon 8:9).  The very essence of Christ is Wisdom.

Wisdom, then is clearly a Person, and not simply an attribute.  It is the Son of God, who is also God’s Word; His Wise Word, as the Fathers say.  Seeking Him, longing for Him and abiding in Him is the key in answering the above question.

Matthew 6:33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.  This is the Kingdom where Jesus Christ is King.  Is He my King or someone else?  If He is, then He has come alive in my heart and guides me step by step in my life as long as I am willing and asking.  I will find meaning in all the issues of life only in Jesus Christ and countless Saints throughout the ages have proven this reality.


O Lord, God who is all in all to me, Life of my life and Spirit of my spirit, have mercy on me and fill me with Your Holy Spirit and with love that there may be no room for anything else in my heart. I do not ask for any blessing, but for Yourself, You who are the giver of all blessings and of all life. I do not ask for the world and its pomp and glory, or for heaven, but I need You Yourself, for where You are, there is heaven. In Yourself alone is satisfaction and abundance for my heart; You Yourself, O Creator, have created this heart for Yourself, and not for any other created thing. Therefore this heart cannot find rest in nothing but You: only in You, O Father, You who have made this longing for peace. So now take out of this heart whatever is opposed to You and abide and rule in it Yourself. Amen.

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